I am new to this blogging thing. I write but when I started this blog I didn’t really know what it would be about. I thought I could talk about the craft projects I do with Jack… or the day to day life we share. I thought I could make it funny… or at times make it serious and heartfelt. I didn’t really know what it should be… and now I do.
On March 6, 2016 we welcomed our second baby into the family. A beautiful baby girl named Claire Elaine. My sweet, sweet Claire. My beautiful blessing. My ray of sunshine in a dark, postpartum world. She and her brother are my entire world. They are my heart. I am blessed beyond words to hold her in my arms and be able to love her each day.
When I found out I was pregnant I was excited and nervous. I knew what to expect. I’d done this before. I prepared for the morning sickness. I prepared for the exhaustion. I prepared for the fear that you have in the first few weeks. I thought I could handle it because I had handled it before. With my first pregnancy my emotions were actually a little better so I thought maybe I’d level out a bit.
I guess a little backstory is that I’ve been diagnosed with several different things in my lifetime. Bipolar. (I am not sold on this diagnosis and believe it was misdiagnosed). Generalized Anxiety Disorder (maybe?) and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (ding ding, we have a winner.) When you are pregnant there is PLENTY to obsess about. PLENTY. I found that when I was pregnant with Jack my fears were there and they were excessive at times… but mostly I trusted my doctors and I got through it.
With Claire– everything was different. To my surprise I didn’t have morning sickness. I had a little nausea but I could still eat. I was so tired all the time which was different than Jack when I didn’t feel overly exhausted. Everything was different. I soon found that where I lacked the physical downfalls of pregnancy, I “gained” in the emotional side of things. I was losing my mind.
I wish that I had been blogging all along but there is no better time to start than now. My sweet girl is 4 months and I feel like I’ve learned and overcome A LOT in the past year. I hope that if anyone finds this blog they know that they aren’t alone.