I’ve been sitting here typing out several opening sentences to this blog… and just don’t feel it. I think it is because the events of the past few months are just really hard to talk about. Anything being “wrong” with my kid is extremely difficult to put into words. Worries fill my head all day long and dread feels my heart. I can feel the anxiety in my chest and in my stomach. I just don’t feel like coming here and writing it all out. Tonight, I feel like listing everything that I am thankful for. I really need to focus on the positive right now.
My son is healthy. My son is happy. My son is starting to respond positively to discipline. My son is hilarious. My son asked me to hold him today. My son said “I need mommy,” today. He told me that I don’t kiss him too much. My son loves the Beatles. He loves music and singing. He says hilarious things. He makes me laugh. He fills me with such joy. He is tall and handsome and loving. He has such a sweet heart and a sweet personality. He loves meditating. He loves learning. My son is my perfect little man.
My daughter is healthy. My daughter is happy. She is learning to walk. She babbles “mama,” “dada,” and I think she’s even babbling “Jack.” She has daily talks with the Christmas tree and the ceiling fan. She has learned to growl. She officially has 4 safe foods– squash, bananas, apples and carrots. She loves splashing in the bath. She loves me and our bond has gotten stronger throughout the last 9 months. She is wild and fearless. She loves her brother. She loves her daddy. She is such a perfect blessing.
My husband is healthy, happy and smart. He loves me with or without makeup. He thinks I’m beautiful when I haven’t showered in 3 days. He is encouraging and uplifting. He deals with so much and handles it all so well. He defends me when I need defending. He loves our children so much. He sees our marriage as a true 50/50 partnership. He is supportive and wonderful.
I am healthy. I am happy. I am blessed with 2 beautiful children and a wonderful husband. I am learning to love my naked face as I move away from makeup. I am learning to appreciate my physical imperfections because they all tell a story. I have rediscovered writing and it is a wonderful “me time” activity. I will do anything for my children and they will always come first. I have discovered over the past few months that I can handle much more than I ever thought and I can handle it amazingly well. I am a good mom–even when dealing with my own issues. I am learning to trust my gut. I can recognize my blessings every single day.
I am thankful for the learning experiences that 2016 has brought. I am thankful for the beautiful little girl I delivered this year! It has been a long, trying year– but there is always something to be thankful for.